why is it i cant hide away and not get hurt?

why is it that when i try to fly i fall; when i try to fit in i stand out; i try to blend in but im still left out; ive tried to be part of the group; tried to be one of the girls; but still im nothing to the world.
they call me names; tell awfull lie; but still i try; i try to be excepeted; try to be loved; try not to get pushed or shoved; i try to behave; i try to do right; but still i wont get to sleep tonight; nights are plaged with monsters and deamons and when morning comes they turn into humans; they laugh and point and tear at my skin; trying to push me to my limits; ive tryed to stand up; ive tried to fight back; but its gotten to the point where ive just given up.
im sick of pain; im sick of hurting; sick of feeling so useless and unworthy.
im sick of crying and tired of trying.
because no matter wat i do itll never be enough!